So this is my first blog. I'm not the best at writing, nor am I very articulate. Not really sure where to start or whether I have anything of importance to say, however I guess I have to start somewhere.
Earlier this year I found myself in a sticky situation. Lost, lonely and questioning everything around me, my whole world felt like it was crashing down right in front of me. Don't worry the rest of the blog won't stay so depressing, this is actually a blog of hope!
When I was in that place I had no idea the amount of love and grace that was being poured out on me, by my husband, my friends, family but most of all by God. Those people who stuck by me through the toughest time in my life mean so much to me. I guess what I'm trying to say is through those 4/5 months of pain I felt like no goodness could ever come of it. Why was I going through all this pain? Why do certain people have bad things happen to them yet some people seem to have such perfect lives? All those questions went through my head. Little did I know that the pain that came would create so much growth in my life also. Now I understand and believe the scripture Romans 8 v 28 'And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." You see during all my pain, my trials and all the mess I was personally creating He knew the end. He always knew that I'd come back, that I'd find His hope, His freedom once again. He NEVER gave up on me, infact He was with me the whole way even though I didn't realise, he was carrying me, holding me in His arms, it was me who'd disconnected from His love not the other way round. Well here I am now, walking with Him, moving foward and cleaning up mess, but never alone, in His strength with His help and direction.
So what am I trying to say? I guess I'm merely just saying how one mans life saved me. How his death saved me from death, because of Him I can live in freedom. Does that mean I always act like I'm free? No. But the reality is that I am, it's not something that can be taken away from me. His love has covered me and I owe my everything to Him. The past month of my life has been a transforming month. Even though I'm still working through a lot I feel as though I am equipped to deal with the problems I am facing. I am able to love again, I'm able to dream for the first time in my life and for that I am thankful.
Love and blessings.
